morning prayer

This is hard work. I had read in Frank's writings that he would stay in bed each morning until he connected with the Lord and felt His presence. I have been trying to do that - some mornings it comes easier than others - some days I feel like I never find Him. The mornings that I do feel Him - I usually do not stay connected for very long and seem to forget for a long time - until it's finally quiet again.

When I do get through - our time together feels amazing. It's like I float through prayer. He leads me to each thing He wants me to pray about - sometimes people i wasn't even thinking of. The last time that i had a strong connection with Him was on Easter morning. The prayer was filled with visions of light. He led me to each person to pray for in my mind and surrounded them with Light - touching them - filling them, lifting them up, holding them up. It is glorious to be used in this way - to see His hand at work in ways I could never have imagined on my own.

I try to spend an hour each morning in prayer. Some days are great and some are awful and it's all I can do to stay awake. It's also really hard to fit it in on the weekends. My husband wants to sleep in with me, so I try to honor that. But on those days especially (when i haven't prayed) I feel very far away from the Lord, almost lost. Its not till I restart the week and am back in my routine that things tend to fall back into place that I can really feel the Lord again. But the days that I spend with the Lord in morning prayer - they always go better. Not circumstances, but my attitude toward them. I am kinder, and less irritated, and each task feels more like worship and less like drudgery. I definitely want more days like that.