Mother Teresa's dark night

This blog post on Mother Teresa's dark night of the soul was amazing.

https://gratefultothedead.wordpress.com/2011/08/24/mother-teresas-long-dark-night/#comments

She suffered for most of her ministry in India without feeling any intimacy with God. I'm pretty sure she is my new hero. Though truly I do not want that to be my story … I am thrilled to know that God did give her an abiding joy and an acceptance of her suffering. I can't wait to read her whole book.

Here is a quote from the blog:
Nothing expresses the intensity of this loss better than Mother Teresa’s own words: “Now Father—since 49 or 50 this terrible sense of loss—this untold darkness—this loneliness—this continual longing for God—which gives me that pain deep down in my heart.—Darkness is such that I really do not see—neither with my mind nor with my reason.—The place of God in my soul is blank.—There is no God in me.—When the pain of longing is so great—I just long & long for God—and then it is that I feel—He does not want me—He is not there.—Heaven—souls—why these are just words—which mean nothing to me.—My very life seems so contradictory. I help souls—to go where?—Why all this? Where is the soul in my very being? God does not want me.—Sometimes—I just hear my own heart cry out—“My God” and nothing else comes.—The torture and pain I can’t explain.”