way better

This week has gotten way better.

The beginning of the week was much like the previous weeks - full of oppression and darkness. But then the Lord broke through and things changed. I can't even say 'here is what I learned' - I had no major epiphany ... He just showed up and began moving. Wednesday morning as I prayed I could feel Him directing me as I prayed,  and I could feel Him working. I could feel His presence in my chest. The weight was gone.

That is not to say He wasn't there before - I knew He was with me - but I couldn't feel Him. He just kept encouraging me to stand up under it in faith that He would rescue. I hope I can say I never lost faith that He would come - though my patience and willingness to endure were lacking.

It has been a hard 40 days - Lent was not easy. But I have learned a lot, pressed into God more than ever, given up more than I thought was possible - and I survived. God brought me through. I imagine that He will show me many things in the weeks to come about all of this... and I am excited to see exactly what!