tv

So all during Lent I felt like the Lord wanted me to let go of TV.

I was not ready to that just yet however.

Lent has been so much hard work. There were days I spent all day in prayer. And I was exhausted. So I wanted to wait to break my TV habit until Lent was over - or in this case almost over. I asked God if that would be OK - and He seemed to say that was fine. On days where the oppression was at its worst - I would take a break and watch a show on Netflix - and let my mind flow somewhere - anywhere else. The  real problem with this was that all the stories would flood into my prayers and cause major distractions. Communion with God was all disrupted, but somehow, in my own mind - it still seemed like a good idea.

I was encouraged by a friend to welcome my kids into my fast in some way... but food didn't seem like the best option. So my husband and I chose TV instead - so from Good Friday morning through Easter evening we will be TV-less. So far no problem - we will see how tomorrow goes.?? But in preparation for our family fast I really wanted to be done with the series I was watching. So Thursday morning I watched the last 2 episodes - so I wouldn't have a random need for closure to getting in my way. So when I turned the TV off after that last episode was done -
I felt a release inside of me.
I felt free of it all.
I began to cry and spontaneously praise God.
He had given me the first fruits of a major stronghold breaking in me.
It was incredible.

So now going back to TV would just seem stupid... I am planning to fast from it all through the summer - and I have an inkling that I will not want to take it back up again when Fall rolls around. Praise God for all the freedoms He is bringing me. This TV addiction has been with me - my whole life - and If He is wanting me to be free of it - I am willing to be led out of it. Oh what a relief it is!