wondering

I have been thinking a lot about heaven and sharing the sufferings of Christ.

I don't live like I am going someplace amazing to be with Jesus when this life is all over. I live like this is it. All my time and energy are focused on making me happy. I don't even think about heaven that much. And I think it's supposed to motivate me and all believers. All the people in Hebrews chapter 11 - lived for a promise that most never got to see. Abraham and Sarah didn't see a nation with more descendants than the stars - they had one son. Yet he trusted God's promise enough to even kill his son - believing that God would resurrect him. Moses took all those whining horrible people away from slavery and to the Promised Land but never got to step foot in it. 'They placed their hope in the resurrection to a better life' it says in Heb 11:35.   They had some of God's promise but not the fullness.

All these people earned a good reputation because of their faith, yet none of them received all that God had promised. For God had something better in mind for us, so that they would not reach perfection without us.
Hebrews 11:39-40
What would I be like, and what could I do for Jesus and His kingdom if I counted all things as loss in light of knowing Him? If I was willing to suffer anything to see God's Kingdom come?

I can't imagine a life like that yet...but He has me wondering...