conquer

Father,
I am frustrated, I am trying to wait patiently, I am wondering where your power is?

I want so badly to overcome this sin in my life. I want to stop overeating, and thinking about food and how much it would be nice to eat this or that without it becoming debilitating and cause me to want even more of this or that! Will there be a day soon when food is just food and not some vicious beast that draws my mind and body away from you? My flesh wants to eat like a 'normal person' but as soon as I do eat like I see others just enjoying food - I gain weight and my mind doesn't just enjoy it - it craves, it longs, it loves food and flavor more than I love you.

I have prayed, I have waited, I have rested in you, I have gone back and forth and all over trying to understand, I have done Bible studies, I have dieted for what seems like forever (years actually), I have exercised, I have reshaped my life, I have cried out to you, begged, pleaded ... yet food and my flesh still have a grip on me.  

I don't want their power in my life anymore - I want to see Yours displayed! When will this be conquered and be in the past - a glorious story to tell of your love and might in my life? You have already conquered sin and death when Christ died and rose can you be more present in this? What does it mean to be One with You - complete in Christ - yet to still have such sin lingering in me?