I want you hungry

I am pretty sure that yesterday I heard the Lord say ... "I want you hungry."

I have been thinking about being what it means to be a prophet ... especially that phrase from Allender's article that said "His life becomes the message... Hosea marries a prostitute to reveal the sorrow of God, Habakkuk argues with God on behalf of the people, and Jeremiah bears the fury of his hearers. He steps into the sin and allows it to affect him, and then uses the struggle to further the larger message."

So I began mulling this over ... if I have the gift of prophecy ... then does my idol of self-soothing - my struggle with food... serve some greater end - tell a story, and what is that end?

Then I began thinking about what Jesus said in John chapter 6 ...

35 Jesus replied, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry again. Whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.


48 Yes, I am the bread of life! 49 Your ancestors ate manna in the wilderness, but they all died. 50 Anyone who eats the bread from heaven, however, will never die. 51 I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will live forever; and this bread, which I will offer so the world may live, is my flesh.”


53 So Jesus said again, “I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you cannot have eternal life within you. 54 But anyone who eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise that person at the last day. 55 For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink. 56 Anyone who eats my flesh and drinks my blood remains in me, and I in him. 57 I live because of the living Father who sent me; in the same way, anyone who feeds on me will live because of me. 58 I am the true bread that came down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will not die as your ancestors did (even though they ate the manna) but will live forever.”


I keep wondering why I never feel satisfied ... both physically and spiritually .... I always feel like I need more - I always ache for more - I am always running after more. Shouldn't Jesus be enough? Shouldn't my salvation be enough to keep me sated? Why doesn't it?

So when I heard "I want you hungry" ... it wasn't just words ... they broke something in me on the inside and I choked out a cry. What was that all about...?

Lord, please reveal yourself here ... I am a bit lost.