There is so much that I could share about the last 4 to 5 months. I could just start letting it all stream out of me in a ridiculous array of crazy ... but I don't think that is how the Lord wants this story told. So it will come, as it comes. These last months have been overwhelming - so overwhelming. BUT Jesus has been in the middle of all of it - teaching me to abide - teaching me to be obedient - teaching me about His healing - teaching me to rest in Him and to go where He leads. It has been a time of putting feet to all that He has been teaching me for the last few years.
I am getting to the end of time at my current church. We are moving next week. It is hard to absorb.
Grieving and excitement are a hard combination. But none-the-less that is how I continually feel. Excited for the new adventure God is sending us on and so sad to leave what He has built through us. Excited to catch fresh vision, and sad to leave all that is being newly revealed here. Exited to see who God has for us to meet and minister to, but sad to leave dear friends who I love and still want to be in their daily lives. It's a ripping, a tearing apart. BUT it is also God's plan and His Kingdom.
I sense a newness ... around the corner not just of place and people, but in me. God getting ready to reveal new things - new ideas - new areas of my heart - that need to be given over. And that idea is really amazing. It is this that keeps me pressing ahead even when it is scary, even when ALL of the unknown seems too big. God's faithfulness never stops, His love never fails, His grace is always available.
Let me stay wide open, Lord, wide open to the work You want to do in me, my marriage - with my kids .... let me hold everything lightly - and please - Let me see YOU clear. And please let me feel the joy of your presence - your love overflowing once again.
