Do people actually read what I say? ... there are times I wish they did not, and that all of this was left in complete obscurity. But every now and then I get a comment from someone unknown encouraging me - and I like that. It's hard to know what to do. I like journaling online but perhaps the audience is unnecessary. I don't know that my original intent has been served - which was to find others like me - who are searching to practice God's presence and actually talking about it. I don't even know If I am doing what I set out to do anymore.
I still desperately want to learn to practice His presence. I still want to know others who are working toward that too. I guess it is something to set to prayer... we will see where the Lord directs.
blogging is meant to be read... it's writing that is intended to be public, right? so getting comments feels encouraging, to know that the words typed aren't unnoticed.
ReplyDeletei think your blog is worth it. it's personal, yet you are trying to connect with other people. i get that when i read it.
on the other hand, reading a blog whose tone is more like a private diary is unpleasant for me... i'm usually confused. it's not always clear what the writer wants to convey, because they already know what they mean, so clarity might be unnecessary.
i like reading about where you are spiritually, aimee, and i like to be able to direct like-minded people here. but... i do get that maybe it's not accomplishing your goal. that is probably a function of presence-minded people being rare... not a function of your blog. does that make sense?
love you.
I like your phrase 'presence-minded people' - perhaps they are rare. I wish that was not the case.
DeleteI guess I am wishing at times to be more personal and less seen. While at other times I wish for someone who understands to see and pursue. Neither has happened - so I wonder if I am serving any purpose. So I ask - am I doing what God wants? Or did He have an entirely different purpose in mind?
hmmm... like maybe an anonymous blog? there are people out there who do that, with a pseudonym. maybe that's the next step, who knows? i'd love to hear more stories from you... stories that give reality to some of your thoughts. but that might not be possible, if you're concerned about being too seen.
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