I am bored of writing the same thing. Wondering when you are going to show up God! I am tired, it's hard to concentrate, by body hurts, I feel oppressed.
I keep trying to do the right things - read your word, pray, sing praises to You, ask You to examine me, - everything feels really hard right now. No matter what I do - You still seem so distant. I know you never leave. But this sucks. I know that just because I am doing all the things I am supposed to do - does not mean that You will show yourself like I want You to. But something - anything - would be nice.
Where is the rest? Where is the fruit of Your Spirit? Why do you make me wait so long? I hate waiting. My sin still feels bigger than Your power - I know that is a lie ... it just feels true right now. There is so much unrest in me.
God I have been crying out for 2 years now - longing for peace - longing for You to rescue... when will it come? So many authors I read keep encouraging me - to keep my faith and wait patiently. The Lord will come and reveal himself - stay focused - keep worshipping... but it is exhausting! I am tired and loosing hope.
Please come ... please.
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