tied together

My question from my last post is ringing in my ears? - God how do I stop trying to 'help' you? What in me still needs to be confessed... you know what? - it doesn't even matter...

I can ask God to lead me to repentance - only He can anyway. I can ask God to reveal my sin - and He will. Only God can fill me with the Spirit - and He has promised He will. Because we/I absolutely can not walk this life without His Spirit. It is impossible for man - but possible for Him.

Andrew Murray's book, 'Absolute Surrender' - has put all in one place - tied together all the loose ends - the journey that the Lord has brought me on for the last 2 years. I am grateful for his obedience so many years ago.

Galatians 3:3
How foolish can you be? After starting your Christian lives in the Spirit, why are you now trying to become perfect in the flesh?

If I leave any room for the flesh - it will take over and I will fail. It has to be entirely the Lord working through me in the Spirit to be worth anything. He does not fail. And if I fail in the future - which I know I will! - I will know it is because I have given room for the flesh - and I need to humble myself before the Lord again - and let go of whatever I am trying to hold onto.

Any failure - any sin - is because we have chosen the flesh over the Spirit - there - simple. Yet so not - because we/I don't always know we are walking in the flesh. And we don't know what it is truly like to walk in the Spirit - regularly.

My 6 months - my amazing summer - was the only time I have ever walked in the Spirit continually. 6 months out of my whole life as a believer of 20 years. That is not to say God hasn't used me at times - despite myself - but really - wow!

I don't want to get hung up on regret though - I could get lost in there for days ... this is where I am - this is where God is taking me now ... I just need to let go and let Him do it.

So I will wait - wait for God to bring repentance and the Spirit. He will. In the mean time - I will worship!