last summer

Last summer was amazing. I have never experienced anything like it. I want desperately to return and bask in the Lord again. He has not granted that yet however. One of Frank Laubach's journal entries begins to explain it:

 May 24, 1930

As I analyze myself I find several things happening to me as a result of these 2 months of strenuous effort to keep the Lord in mind every minute. This concentration on God is strenuous, but everything else has ceased to be so. I think more clearly, I forget less frequently. Things which I did with strain before, I now do with easily and with no effort whatever. I worry about nothing and lose no sleep. I walk on air a good part of the time. Even the mirror reveals a new light in my eyes and face. I no longer feel in a hurry about anything. Everything goes right. Each minute I meet calmly as though it were not important. Nothing can go wrong excepting one thing. That God may slip from my mind if I do not keep on my guard. If He is there, the universe is with me. My task is simple and clear.

When I first read this entry - I was so excited to hear about someone else who has has the same experience as me. This was what last summer was like. I am beginning to wonder if it will ever be repeated...but it was worth it to have the Lord's presence for even a few months. There were many moments where I felt like I was
floating. Floating through my day on the will of God. It was like each moment came to me and there was no need to rush. I could hear the Lord continually speaking with me and my mind was always singing His praise. Seriously, in the back of my mind there was always a praise song running. God was filling me up with so much love - there were times I felt so overwhelmed I didn't know what to do with it all. He woke me up at night to pray, He filled my mind during the day with words for people. I was having visions when I prayed as well. And I could have spent hours upon hours in prayer - and it felt like minutes.  Everything around me made more sense, the slow car in front of me, the little pieces of fluff floating in the sky in summer, a tree, the birds - they all fit together in an amazing woven puzzle that sang the Lord's praise. The ministry the Lord had for me - came to me and He filled my mind with thoughts that were not my own - and were often for me as well. He showed me what to read, led me to each scripture, and each book.

It was like I was open for the first time - totally free. It was all a grand gift from the Lord. The most wonderful gift of knowing His heart for me and feeling totally free from myself to worship Him as I am meant to. Will anything ever compare again?